Nella Fantasia

8:58am. Good morning world. Good morning Singapore.

Feels like I have taken such a long, roundabout journey to finally be back here. This is the place where I first stepped out to see the world in a different lens. Though there were sad and happy moments, this is the place where I built some crucial foundations to propel me further.

If I had stayed on in Malaysia, I'd never be exposed to the broad opportunities possible for the determined. It's not that there aren't any good opportunities at home, it's just that the level of exposure is so much higher here and the playing field is of a totally different standard. And with that experience, I set my eyes on higher aspirations - to go 'overseas' for my tertiary education.

Studying abroad was almost like an impossible dream; I was not among the star performers of my college days and certainly not in the shortlist of prestigious scholarships that sends you to top US or UK universities for study. And one fine afternoon, mum saw an ad for a scholarship to study in Australia; and the rest is history.

I had my fair share of uncertainties going to Australia for study. Prior to joining university, I had developed a dislike for economics, I also just had enough money to last me for 4 years. Thanks to the fantastic teaching staff, it became my favorite and best subject, earning me a book-prize, a job and some extra money.

Singapore was also the place I came closer to God. Maybe I had more chance to explore, but my journey with Him was certainly an important one. While in Australia, there was Hillsongs and Metro CLC to help me grow in my walk with God, and really I have experienced his grace and mercy many times.

Life was great in Aussieland. Great food, almost-carefree lifestyle, lovely weather, big room, large open spaces, no overly crowded trains. Somehow, I think I have become complacent. Perhaps it's the effect of living in a developed country.

I'm glad I'm back in Singapore. It's time to revisit my launchpad. Time to strip away the luxuries of life and gain a new understanding of the meaning of simple living. Also, learning to chase after God again, and being passionate about what I do.

I woke up this morning watching a video about someone living alone without family, and without much means, and yet still singing passionately - because he is passionate about singing. He was singing Nella Fantasia ("In My Fantasy").

It's time to go back to square one, start from ground zero, and step-by-step turn fantasy to reality.